I was lying on the floor with my feet in an armchair as I began to land after the mushroom trip. Suddenly my right leg started twitching. It had been easy for me to make it stop by changing my position, but I got the feeling that I should investigate it instead. So I followed my intuition and let the twitching continue.
It grew in power and I soon noticed that it wasn’t coming from my leg, but rather originated in my pelvis. Soon I was shaking so hard that I had to move my legs out of the chair and onto the floor. I shook and when I dove into the shaking memories began to emerge.
– Please sit next to me, I asked my partner. I need to tell you what is coming up. It is quite fast.
– I’m at primary school and I’m running. I’m afraid. Some boys in the fifth grade are right behind me and they are going to beat me up.
The shaking shifted in character, just as the stories.
– I am 15 and I am masturbating compulsively.
– They’re going to beat me up. I’m afraid.
I lay there for more than an hour while the intense shaking unlocked repressed memories of times when I was afraid. Afterwards I was completely exhausted, but it felt good to have done it. Many things loosened and I felt lighter.
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A few days later I was talking with a friend.
– I have been to a shaking course in Stockholm, he told me.
– Really? What was that like, I asked with interest.
Then he told of the exact same technique that I had practiced in my living room. The theory behind it is this: every time you get scared or frightened, your muscles tense. These constant muscle contractions create tension in the body which we never fully release and they mainly settle in the pelvis. Imagine a dog that is frightened. It pulls its tail in between its legs. Humans have the same reaction. What the technique does is to release tension and relieve the person from the emotional luggage and the fears that have been stored away, which of course also leads to one becoming less controlled by old fears.
– But it is important not to do more than 15 minutes at a time, he then said.
I giggled a little to myself, because it’s so typical of me to go all in when I find a new technique.
– What about the memories? How did you work with them, I asked.
– The memories? What do you mean?
– The memories that are associated with each event. Each event is specific and carries with it a specific memory and a specific shaking.
– They said nothing about. We just shook.
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As the inquisitive person I am, I took to the web. I soon found Trauma Release Exercises (TRE) developed by David Berceli, PhD, who is an international expert in trauma healing and conflict resolution. The technique he described was identical to the one I have been given. It has been used in disasters around the world, from Utöya in Norway to the ghettos of Cape Town, and is used with good success also for stress and treatment of PTSD.
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This is often the case, I’ve noticed. When I have done a good deed for the spirit world – when I have healed a place, helped a spirit pass on or done something good for nature – then I am given a gift, often in the form of healing techniques. This is particularly evident when working with psychedelics. The mushroom does not only deliver insights. It is a plant teacher in its fullest sense. When I am worthy, it teaches me things and gives me gifts.
Thank you for this technique.
Photo: Standing over the clouds by Ewen Roberts on Flickr