About a year and a half ago I had a mushroom session where I was told to make my own medicine bag. In meditation I got in contact with a red deer and asked permission to use its skin, which it gladly gave me. At first I thought I would have to shoot the animal myself, but I soon understood that it was all right if I got the hide from the hunters.
I had to wait for half a year before the hunting season started and meanwhile I put aside money to afford everything. The hunting team in the area that I was shown gave me a skin to collect from the butcher. When I asked what they wanted for it, I got it for free. I drove off with an untreated skin, directly from the slaughter.
The next thing to do was to figure out how to tan it. On the internet I found some tanning firms, but it was expensive and not the quality I wanted. A butcher gave me the phone number to a man close by that works with Stone Age techniques. I went to his home with the intention of paying him to tan my skin, which I knew could be pricey. He showed me the different qualities of leather and when I got one particularly soft one in my hand, I knew it was what I wanted.
– Well, that’s the most expensive one, because it takes a lot of work, he said.
We continued talking and after a while he asked me what I wanted it for. When I told him that I was going to make a medicine bag, he interrupted me.
– In that case you want to do it yourself, he said. You just come here with the hide and I’ll show you how to do it.
I was happily surprised, but could imagine that it would be expensive. When I asked he told me that it wouldn’t cost anything.
I have spent a lot of time out there – scraping, brain tanning the hide and finally smoking it. And while I learnt how to tan a deer skin from scratch, I also found a wonderful new friend.
It took me a while before I actually dared use my scissors on it. The third bag I sewed was mine. I did it outside with the sun in my face and a bumblebee by my side. The only thing that is not buckskin is the button, which is a beautiful wooden piece with three Swedish woods that another friend made. I think it resembles a leaf, which reminds me of the contact with nature. When I did my ceremony with the finished bag I found out that it holds love in many forms. Unconditional love, healing love, physical love and forgiveness.
One and a half years later, it is ready and I am happy and grateful. Very happy and very grateful.