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Time for new beginnings

Today is the Spring Equinox which is a time for endings and new beginnings, death and rebirth. We lay old projects to rest and see the first seedlings of new ones.

Today I will climb to the top of a hill together with friends, light a fire and we will all burn something from the past that we no longer need or want in our lives. Then we will wish for the new things we want to invite into our lives with the support or the energy of the Spring. Afterwards we’ll have a meditation, eat and talk about our new projects.

Photo: Spirited Away by Stephen Brace on Flickr
Photo: Spirited Away by Stephen Brace on Flickr

I have a couple of new projects that are yearning for my attention and also a few old ones that need to come to an end to make room for the new ones. This blog is one such thing that will be coming to an end. I have been writing it for two years now and it has been a great therapeutic tool and also a way to share and connect with others. I am truly grateful for the healing it has given me and also grateful for the wonderful people it has put me in contact with. Thank you everyone who has supported me such as Naysha, Azarius and Zamnesia. With a smile and a light heart I will now move on to other even more interesting projects.

I wish you all the best of luck with your projects and please feel free to get in contact with me with questions, thoughts, bookings, new friendships and such.

Daniel Wilby

Main photo: Almost Over The Rainbow by Adrian Ruiz on Flickr

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Picking or growing your own psychedelic mushrooms

Hi,
I’m looking to grow my own mushrooms for personal spiritual development. As they are ‘illegal’ I was wondering if you had any tips of where I can purchase seeds or baby mushrooms safely and securely?

Many thanks.

Greg

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The very best mushrooms to work with are the ones that are indigenous to your area, so first of all I would suggest that you check if there are any where you live. In Sweden we have the Liberty cap (toppslättskivling) which can be found in old cow pastures roughly between September and November. It is best if you pick them yourself, since you infuse them with your own intention.

The next best thing to do is to grow them yourself. This is good for a number of reasons. You will know what you are growing, while a dealer might not know exactly what s/he is selling. You will also infuse them with your intention and care, which is good when working with your personal and spiritual development.

The laws surrounding mushrooms that contain psilocybin vary, so you will need to check what is applicable where you live. In Sweden the mushrooms are illegal, but not the spores. It is similar with cannabis where the plant is illegal, but the seeds are not. If you can get hold of spores you can start your own grow operation, but if the package is crossing borders I would suggest that you send it to a different address from where you will be growing it. In Sweden we have had a few cases of customs tipping the police about legal shipments, and then the police have come by a few months later when the grow operation is up and running.

Growing your own mushrooms is a little complicated for a beginner, but there are excellent guides to help you out. Browse Erowid for more information. You can also find good grow kits that contain everything you need. A much easier option is to buy grow boxes with ready mycelium in them. They are super easy to handle, but might not be legal where you live. In Sweden I am not quite sure. I have heard that the mycelium is actually legal, but I do not know of a court case that confirms it. If you know of one, please let me know.

If you can’t find a supplier that ships to your area I would suggest trying to find fellow enthusiasts that can give you some spores to get started with.

In Europe I would suggest one of the two shops that support me – Azarius or Zamnesia. I am not familiar with any shops outside Europe, but you should be able to google them easily enough.

I would suggest that you try growing a few different kinds of mushrooms and that you meditate with them to get to know them. Also never mix different strains. B+ is an excellent all-round mushroom while I find that the Cambodian strain is very good for working with death and deep transformation.

Feel free to tell me how things work out! The best of luck to you.

Photo: Psilocybe Cubensis – Ecuador by afgooey74 on Flickr

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First experience with Ololiuhqui (LSA seeds)

This is my third trip report with seeds containing LSA. This time I used Ololiuhqui (Rivea Corymbosa) seeds, which are much smaller than the Hawaiian Baby Woodrose seeds I used for my last report. I tried them together with my partner. Her report comes after mine here.

Read my previous reports here:
Notes from my first journey on Hawaiian Baby Woodrose seeds
First LSA trip with a client

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ololiuqui-rivea-corymbosa-packI wasn’t really up for it, but it was the only time I could fit into my schedule right then, so when my partner asked I agreed anyway. We used 20 seeds each, ground them up a little and made tea of them, which we drank on an empty stomach.

01:00   The seeds come on very slowly. At the one hour mark I lay down to meditate. As before I ask the spirit of the seeds to show itself, but it doesn’t. I do however get a watery feeling. Something to do with water.

It feels as if the dose is to weak. I seem to be in the limbo zone – effected, but still far to normal to be able to work with the effect. Quite an unpleasant feeling. After 15 minutes of meditation I lose interest.

01:15   I do some drumming. After a while I am called back to meditate.

01:30-02:20   Sleepish effects. Nothing more substantial. It might be working with me, but if it is it is so subtle that I can’t even feel it while meditating.

03:10   We go outside and have a walk around the village. My partner seems to be having some quite interesting effects with spirit contacts, but I am left in the uncomfortable limbo. It is easy for us to communicate with each other.

05:00   We go home and I eat to come down from the unpleasant effect.

13:00   I wake up well rested and happy.

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Lessons learnt

I made a couple of errors that are easy to recognize:
∙ I wasn’t up for it. I should not do ceremonies when I am not in the right mind set.
∙ We didn’t have the equipment to grind the seeds properly, which I believe made for a much lesser effect.

After having talked to a guide who is experienced in using seeds containing LSA I am re-evaluating how I approach the plant spirit. When it comes to psychedelic mushrooms, San Pedro and Ayahuasca they have all been very communicative with me and have shown themselves to me. I go into the meditation expecting the same of the seeds, but they seem to be hiding from me. I have two thoughts about this:
∙ The seeds might have a more occult energy to them, which the guide I have talked to confirms. I cannot say about the Ololiuhqui seeds, but it seems to be the case with the Hawaiian Baby Woodrose seeds. Being of a different energy than I consider myself to work in, they might be hiding for that reason.
∙ In the future I will let go of how I have successfully approached other teacher plants and only be open to what it wants to show me, instead of asking it to show itself to me.

I try to stay clear of expectations by not reading too much about the seeds before I try them, but after this unsatisfying and uncomfortable trip I felt compelled to read up a bit more specifically on the Ololiuhqui seeds. To me they seemed worthless, but when I take to Erowid I find reasons to go back for a second look.

Statue of Our Lady of Guadalupe by Rennett Stowe on Flickr.
Statue of Our Lady of Guadalupe by Rennett Stowe on Flickr.

In a bulletin by the late Albert Hofmann I find it described that the Ololiuhqui seeds are seen as a small green snake and are held as sacred together with psychedelic mushrooms and San Pedro, both of which I have great respect for. It is further described that they are still used in shamanic practice by several tribes in Mexico, but although I have looked around a great deal I am unable to locate any shamans on the internet that work with them.

In the bulletin Hofmann also describes that the seeds are used to work with the Virgin Mary and that they are used to heal the sick and wounded with her grace. This wouldn’t have sparked my interest if it hadn’t been for an experience I had a few weeks earlier with Ayahuasca. There I had a wonderful experience of the Virgin Mary where I just rested in her grace for a couple of hours. That experience left me a little surprised, since I have never before been in contact with the Virgin Mary and didn’t go looking for it.

After having read Hofmanns bulletin I very much look forward to revisiting the Ololiuhqui to see if I can find the connection to grace and perhaps also the healing of the Virgin Mary.

En kold novembermorgenby Christian Theede Christiansen on Flickr.
En kold novembermorgenby Christian Theede Christiansen on Flickr.

My partner’s experience

My partner and I crush 20 seeds each and let them soak in cold water. We open a hallowed room and invite the substance to work with us. I feel the energy immediately when I drink the water, it’s mysterious and heavy.

I ask the substance to show itself to me, after asking many times I see a spiral. After half an hour we are going to meditate, and just before I lay down I hear a voice in my head who says that I’m pregnant.

I reject it and try to focus on communicating with the substance. It becomes very empty and silent, until someone contacts me. It is a spirit who tells me that he’s named Owen and that he lives in my womb.

I: How can I be pregnant? I use protection.

Digital Natives Blud, when I get out, we goin' Nando's, innit via Tom Bennett by Duncan Hull on Flickr.
Digital Natives Blud, when I get out, we goin’ Nando’s, innit via Tom Bennett by Duncan Hull on Flickr.

He: *laughs*. Yes, it doesn’t always matter. Sometimes things are meant to be, and then it just happens. I am here of different reasons. I know you long for children, but it is not right for you right now. I and In* want you to know that we will come to you in the future, and that we love you. Do not rush, you know when it’s right.

I: Do you know In?

He: Yes, we know each other. We hang out a lot.

I: What should I do with you then? I don’t want to, and am not supposed to have children at this time.

He: You do not always get pregnant in order to have children. You’re pregnant right now because you’re supposed to learn something from it.

I: But what should I learn? I don’t want this right now, it feels like I’m going to have a hard time.

He: You’ll see what you learn. It’s mostly because I need you now. Before I come to you as a human I have to know/go through some stuff. I need to feel that someone is taking care of me, I need you to do that by taking care of yourself. Treat yourself well, you know how to, and I will learn from it. I am good at taking care of others but not myself. We will take care of each other. I will teach you and you will learn.

I: Okay. Will I need an abortion?

He: You may get an abortion. You may have a miscarriage. I might just disappear.

I: If you are an embryo inside my womb, you can’t just disappear?

He: I certainly can!

I: How?

He: Just as the body adapts so that a woman can get pregnant even though she should not ovulate, so can embryos dissolve and be flushed out by, for example, vaginal discharge.

I: Oh, how do you know that?

He: Because I know that.

I: Who shall be your father?

He: Daniel.

I: So if I have children with someone else it will not be you and In?

He: No, then we do something else. But we want to have the experience of having you and Daniel as parents. The universe wants it. I might come before In does.

I: Why?

He: Because she still needs to learn things as a spirit. She is so messy now.

I: I have been told that she comes first.

He: Things change.

I: Why did it change?

He: Because it did. The only thing that is constant is change. Now go out and write this down and we’ll talk again later. I love you.

After that conversation me and my partner took a walk, but I did not think I got much out of the trip after that. I found it difficult to communicate with the substance, and my body felt restless, probably because the dose was far too low. However, I am very pleased with my experience. I look forward to working with LSA again. I have a feeling that it will be more instructive and stimulating at higher doses.

* IN is a spirit I’ve met before.

Photo: …..silentRime (table of the word) by Windiepink on Flickr

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First LSA trip with a client

Anders notes

When I came to Daniel in the middle of the day I did not felt very good. I had some anxiety which I had for about a week. Now I was in my low state, I felt afraid that I would meet terrible feelings during the session, think that Daniel was my enemy and run off. I had a lot of expectations and some fears. Among other things I thought that I would revisit terrible traumas from my childhood, get stuck in them and go home with even more pain. It turned out that none of those fears or thoughts would come true!

We drank tea and talked for a few hours, among other things about safety, and the anxiety disappeared. Daniel did a tarot reading regarding the dose, and a little about what to expect of the trip, which was inspiring! We used nine seeds each. We prepared the session by crushing the seeds and making cold tea from the crumbs. We sat on a pillow on the floor and invited the entities we wanted help and support from during the session. Daniel did a shamanic purification ceremony with smoke from a special type of wood. (Palo Santo)

We drank our tea and it tasted quite ok. After only 15 minutes I started to feel the effect – I felt somewhat dizzy/sluggish, drowsy and a bit cozy. After a while Daniel thought it was time to meditate with the substance, so we lay down and closed our eyes. I felt curious and also afraid of the new, unknown and “dangerous”, but that soon passed and I slept some.

After a few hours it was time to venture out into the forest. I felt that my body was very sluggish and that I was sleepy. As soon as I got the opportunity I sat down and rested. We dressed in our warmest clothes and went out. I felt a little afraid that I would look drugged or sound drugged when I talked. I worried that the neighbors might see and hear us, but there was no danger and everything went well. I felt so tired that it took much effort for me to walk. Finally we sat down by a sheep pasture.

Daniel asked me to lie down and bury my hands in the grass to make contact with the earth, and then to hand over all that which I no longer needed or which no longer benefited me to the earth. I spoke loudly, and Daniel walked a little further to give me space. The tiredness disappeared. I did as he said, and it felt ok, but I was not 100 percent there. After a while I was absorbed by a thought: I did not want to remain in my relationship! I felt really scared that it might be true and that I would need to break up!

I went to Daniel and told him about my thought, and was very surprised to immediately be given confirmation that I need to make this tough decision in order to be true to myself, develop and feel good. Of course I could make other choices, such as choosing security and convenience, and they were in no way inferior, but they would not lead me to where I really want to go. What I realized later was that Daniel was channeling my higher self. His voice was quite different, and the answers he gave to my questions were so confident and calm, and I noticed that I actually already had all the answers.

As soon as I felt convinced that it was “right” for me to leave my relationship the next terrifying thought appeared: would I have to give up my main occupation? I was aware that it is a bit destructive for me, but it is also very rewarding and what would I do instead? With the same confidence Daniel affirmed my fear and I realized once again that I already had the answer within, but did not dare listen and follow my conviction. Both of these things seemed enormously frightening and painful to me, but I felt that there was no other way for me if I want to get closer to myself, find my strength and create my own life.

There were many questions and I got good answers to everything except that which was too much in the details. Even though I felt terrified to have to tell my girlfriend, employer and everyone else about my decisions, which to some must seem absolutely crazy, I was relieved to finally dare to trust my inner voice. I even laughed several times when I realized how true it was, and how I had tricked myself in different ways! Daniel’s explanations were so obvious, and I felt very fascinated by our conversation. I also felt very present and in safe hands.

When I eventually ran out of questions we went for a walk in the woods, to finally get back inside. I thought it was nice, but I felt the drowsiness coming back, even if the effect of the seeds was much weaker than a few hours earlier. I was assigned to write down everything I was grateful for with my girlfriend, and once I got started I was no longer disturbed by the otherwise rather heavy fatigue. I wrote several pages of things that I am grateful for, and it felt incredibly sad that I would leave a woman who has done so much for me, and who I love. There were doubts, but I realized why I have to leave her. There are things that I have to learn, process, and I cannot do so while I’m with her. What happens later in life remains un-written.

We once again laid down and went on channeling. I was very present and focused. I noted that I really had not had any hallucinations or distorted perception of time or similar effects throughout the session. I understand that sessions with psychedelics can be very different, but this was certainly not what I had expected!

I slept very little that night, and I felt alone with my big challenges. The thoughts whirled around and I was afraid to be perceived as strange by my parents, relatives, friends, colleagues and so on. How can I leave a woman who is so amazing in every possible way, and how can I leave a job that is so fun, desirable and income generating?

I’ve actually done this once before, about 15 years ago. I left my wife and my job at the same time, because it did not feel right in the heart. It was incredibly hard at the time, and it took time to get back on my feet again, but with hindsight I don’t regret it the slightest. Imagine that I would make the same mistake again! Obviously I have not learnt to fully believe in my inner voice yet.

In the morning Daniel was talking as himself again. We talked for a while, ate breakfast, and did a tarot reading, among other things, to gain perspective on what had happened and what will happen, what my biggest problem is (lack of intuition) and how to solve it. Daniel recommended me not to seek other therapies or therapists right now, since it would not benefit me and my development. Most likely I would not take more trips with him in the near future, because I had enough to do with the insights that the session had given me. We thanked each other and with that this amazing, transformative and almost surreal trip was over.

It baffles me that so much could happen in just one session! Now begins the process of taking care of the external reality and manifesting all that the session taught me!

The Woods by Boudewijn Berends on Flickr
The Woods by Boudewijn Berends on Flickr

Daniels notes

As usual I talk to my client (Anders) about how we best manage difficult situations on psychedelics and how we interact to make the situation as safe as possible. We are working with Hawaiian Baby Woodrose and together we decide on a dose of nine seeds.

To avoid the heavy body load that I experienced when I chewed the seeds we crush and make tea of them, putting the pulverized seeds in teabags and letting them soak in cold water for 30 minutes. That process is supposed to extract the active substance, but leave some substances that are heavy on the body. The water became murky green.

After having purified ourselves, we created a sacred place and called in the four archangels Ishmael, Raphael, Gabriel and Michael, as well as friendly nature spirits. Then we drank the tea.

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00:15  The effect comes very quickly. I feel a slight nausea.

00:35  We lay down to meditate with the seeds. I ask the plant several times to reveal itself to me, but it is evasive. The only thing I can see is a mask that looks to be African or West Indian. The plant asks me to lay in different positions for it to work through my entire body.

02:15  A very short purge (vomit) and then a very creative flow.

02:30  Anders remains in meditation, but asks where I am. He says it would have been easy to just be cozy and continue to lie down, which is one reason why we set an intention and decided that we would go out before taking the trip. This is obviously something that applies throughout life. If you have no intention it is easy to lapse into passivity. He comes along even though he isn’t really keen on it.

approx. 04:00  We are in the woods and I have told Anders to lie down, bury his hands in the grass and let go of anything he no longer wants to mother earth. I lie and do the same some 20 meters away, to give him privacy so he can speak loudly. After 5-10 minutes, he asks if he can come over to me. He has a question.

I connect and begin channeling answers to him. Initially it isn’t entirely clear from where the messages are coming, but they are to the point and obviously correct. After finding that it is neither plant, nature, angels or I speaking, I reach the conclusion that it is his higher self that is speaking through me.

In addition to the answers his higher self emphasizes two things that go together. One is that everything in his life is based on his own free will. He has the power to choose what kind of life he wants to create and live. The second, which is a natural consequence, is that it is his own choice if he wants to do as his higher self advises. His higher self advises him to end his relationship, his job and move out to the woods, but points out that the advice is based on what is best for his healing and growth. He can make the choice to rather emphasize such things as security and convenience, and those choices would in no way be better or worse than any other choice. They are just different choices that lead to different life paths.

approx. 06-08: 00  We go home and I ask Anders to write down the things he has to be grateful for with his girlfriend. Then we continue channeling, but unlike the situation in the woods, I am now passing along equal parts from his higher self and of my own knowledge. The effect is still strong.

10:15  We go to bed. The effect is still very noticeable.

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In conclusion it is much easier for the body to absorb the LSA when you first make cold tea of the seeds. However, it does seem to take away a little of the effect. I guess that nine crushed seeds is the equal of seven chewed seeds.

I can see that LSA has a therapeutic and shamanic potential, but I do not understand why it is hiding from me. I do not feel that it is the plant itself that helps the work, but rather it is my ability to use the psychedelic state which makes LSA a useful substance.

Photo: The woods by Boudewijn Berends on Flickr

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Notes from my first journey on Hawaiian Baby Woodrose seeds

Hawaiian Baby Woodrose seeds, which contain LSA.

Preparations

I am trying the seeds on my own, but I have told friends what I am doing. I don’t have my children for five days, or any other appointments, so I have plenty of time to land comfortably afterwards.

The night before I have slept very well. At 14:00 o’clock I eat four sandwiches and two eggs. After consulting my tarot cards I decide to begin my journey at 21:00. As I do so I put on a watch and set it to 12, so that I always know how much time has passed. The times noted in the journey are hours and minutes after I have eaten the seeds. I always have my phone in my pocket, in case I need to get in contact with someone.

I open a sacred space and invite archangel Ishmael, archangel Gabriel and my friend in spirit, Walter. I also invite all beneficial energies to work with me, especially Mother Earth.

Dose

One of Azarius customers recommends that you take no more than three seeds the first time, but Azarius also write that a normal trip is four to eight seeds. Erowid places three seeds as a threshold or light dose, a common dose as five to eight seeds and a strong dose as seven to twelve seeds.

I am use to high dose sessions and very familiar with working with psychedelics, so after consulting my tarot cards I decide on a dose of nine seeds. I sing for and plant the tenth seed.

I would not recommend such an initial dose for beginners or intermediate users.

The journey

00:05   As with all psychedelics so far I can feel the energy as soon as I take the seeds in my mouth. They are quite hard and I chew them thoroughly.

00:40   The effect is really coming on and I lay down in bed to meditate with the seeds. It tells me how to place my body, but not much more. It doesn’t present itself, as mushrooms do for me. I have no closed eye visuals.

02:30   The seeds have worked through my entire body and also my face, which is new to me. I have a short purge (vomit).

02:40   The body load is very heavy and quite crippling. It lacks the clarity of LSD. I must focus to remain conscious.

Note to self: I must find ways to lessen the body load.

03:00   I need to remind myself not to compare the seeds to LSD, to let them be what they are in their own right. I have no problems operating things like my phone, but I do have a serious problem getting off the floor. No thoughts are buzzing.

03:20   Toilet break. It feels good to stand up, but I am being pulled to lay down.

Note to self: where I am now is not a good therapeutic dose. Too strong, since I am having to focus on being conscious.

03:30   I have beginning heartburn. I eat one Novaluzid, seven almonds and drink a glass of water. Even though the dose is excessive, I am fully able to monitor myself and I am aware of my bodily needs.

03:45   The experience is calming down slightly. I can move around a little more.

04:20   It is not good to lie on my stomach, since it lures me to become unconscious (unconscious as un-aware, not as in falling asleep). I lie on my back and practice a surrendering meditation. The dose is too strong to allow me to do this effectively, since I am putting more effort in to keeping aware and focused, than on surrendering. I do have brief breakthroughs though.

A friend checks in to see how I’m doing.

04:35   Significant increase of body load.

I go outside and notice that it is a full moon. I feel a strong activation of my left side of my body, lie down on the grass and bury my hands in it to strengthen the connection to mother Earth. I begin thanking her, saying things like “Thank you for cleansing me, thank you for taking care of all the rubbish I have, thank you for cleaning me”. I do so for approximately five minutes and then all of a sudden, as if my prayer of thankfulness has been heard, I instead begin saying “I’m thankful that I am cleansing myself, I’m thankful that I get rid of all my rubbish, I’m thankful that I clean myself”, which goes on for another five minutes. Mother Earth helps me and empowers me, but she also works through me as I work with myself. I feel grateful and happy, blessed, as I stand up with a big smile on my face and begin walking to the forest.

On my way I begin singing my first icaros (shaman song). “Hey. You’re ok. You’ll be fine. Just breathe.” I sing it with full heart and as I’m walking along a fence I become aware of something walking next to me. As I look through the fence there is a white sheep there. I put my hand through the fence to pat it and end up standing there cuddling and talking with it for a good ten minutes. I have grown up with sheep, but I have never seen one act this way. It is like a really affectionate cat rubbing it’s head against my hands.

Roar by Sarah Laval on Flickr.
Roar by Sarah Laval on Flickr.

I say goodbye, walk another 50 meters and feel the need to purge once more. I throw up violently and then lie down on the ground. As I lie there panting I thank mother Earth for receiving and transforming that which I no longer need. I feel a great release, especially in the throat area. A growl grows within and I soon find myself growling with immense power and joy as I connect to my inner lion. After having growled and sung and thanked mother Earth for a good 30 minutes I get to my feet feeling deeply relieved. I rub my medicine bag in the dirt before I continue walking along the forest path in the dark of the night.

As I continue to sing my first ikaros, my second icaros soon arrives. It seems very fitting, seeing that I am walking in the forest. “I am a walking tree, you are a walking tree :ǁ Feet on the earth, head in the sky. Our hearts join together, the two to one to meet :ǁ Bringing the light down, to the darkest ground. Releasing the dark side, into the light. :ǁ” The forest very much enjoys my presence and my song.

I get slightly lost and wander around the dark forest laughing about it all, but never have the urge to get my flashlight out or check the map in my phone.

07:15   Home again. Still very intense, but also very manageable. I have a cup of tea, feel happy and free. I begin working on cleansing unwanted energies from my life.

09:00   Still very strong. I feel a need to begin landing, since I am tired and hungry.

10:15   The experience is still going strong when I eat a baked potato and go to bed afterwards. No problem going to sleep.

19:20   I have slept for a little more than 8 hours. I am still a little spaced out, but more than that I feel relaxed, comfortable and content. I feel much lighter and grateful to have released whatever was in my throat. I am grateful for the guidance from mother Earth, for having connected with my two ikaros and for the strong connection to my inner lion.

After another night’s sleep I am back to normal, but still very happy and content. I seem to be dreaming more vividly after the experience.

In conclusion

Keeping in mind that this is my very first trip on seeds containing LSA I would say that the experience was very rewarding. Nine seeds is a strong dose with a lot of body load, but also great potential for solo shamanic work, or work with other shamans. For working therapeutically I would lower the dose somewhat, at least for the therapist, so that it wouldn’t be a challenge to keep focus.

I didn’t feel that the experience was as clear as LSD or as mystical as mushrooms, but it was certainly a psychedelic experience that can be used both for spiritual/shamanic and therapeutic work. I wasn’t able to have clear communication with the seeds, but will continue trying in future sessions. There seems to be a connection to earth and nature.

It was good that I drank more water before the second purge, or it would have been very painful.

I recommend a much lower dose for beginners and intermediate users, at least without a proper guide present. Also one should set aside the next day for integrating the experience and make sure to get enough sleep.

Photo: The Full Moon of Glen Ellyn by Jim Larrison on Flickr

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Daniel tries legal psychedelics

Press Release 2014-12-31:

In 2015 the Swedish/English blogger and shaman Daniel Wilby will try legal drugs to investigate their therapeutic and spiritual potential.
– It is my hope to be able to offer legal psychedelic therapy and healing in the near future, he explains.

Nine years ago he himself recovered from long-term alcohol abuse and a deep depression when he came in contact with the illegal psychedelic substance LSD. Since then he has worked intensely to learn how to use psychedelics for healing and growing, both for himself and with others.
– I see the criminalization of psychedelics such as LSD and psilocybin mushrooms as a violation of every person’s inherent right to heal and practice their spiritual beliefs. For me, these substances saved my life and I can never be grateful enough for the help I received through them.

Daniel works in the shamanic tradition, but has also recently begun studying social work at the university of Malmö with the hope of being able to work with legal psychedelic therapy in the future.
– At first I imagined that I would have to open a center abroad to bring clients to, but this fall we had a big discussion in Sweden about the harmful yet legal Spice blends. That made me think of all these substances that are not yet classified as illegal. I want to examine them to see if there are some that are good to work with in the same manner as I have previously worked with LSD and mushrooms.

The Internet-based smartshop Azarius in Holland sponsors Daniel with products from their selection, and he will continuously report his and others’ experiences on his blog.
– Two things have been particularly important when we have selected which substances to try. The first is that the substance must be safe. There cannot be the slightest risk for my health. The second is that the substance must be legal in Sweden.

Psychedelic plants have in shamanic traditions been used for many thousands of years to heal and help people grow, and to get in contact with the spirit world. During a short period leading up to the 1960s, they were used extensively in Western therapeutic contexts and generally showed great results, but all such research was suppressed when the war on drugs began.
– The reason that psychedelics were banned in the 1960s was not that they were dangerous, but because they were perceived as subversive. Suddenly people let their hair grow, they listened to strange music and refused to go to war. For militaristic-minded nations who expected a certain conformity and obedience, this was very scary. Compared to other drugs and medications psychedelics are very safe, but as with anything you obviously need to know what you are doing.
– In a therapeutic context psychedelics allow us to quickly go very deep. They strip away unnecessary walls and help us to dive into the subconscious, which means that we can often go further in one single psychedelic session than you would in months or even several years of regular therapy.

Photo: Daniel Wilby by Jamin Pirnia

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